Am i burned out or what?

I hate this feeling... It seems that every year, I am, stuck with feelings of anger, fear, and frustration. Will this gonna end? Will this be worth it in the end? It seemed like I feel lost than before. It seems that everytime i wake up, I feel bitter over everything that has gone through. I am two years behind schedule in terms of path to lawyerhood as of press time. I don't know what to feel when my mother talks to me. I don't know if I have this much drive anymore in terms of learning the law. It seems like every year, I am degenerating. I missed my election law exam last sat.
I almost got a zero if not for Atty. Valencia's kind consideration. I don't have the same drive anymore. What ever I regained after going back and deciding to go through law school full blast was lost. I feel worse than the first time I entered law school. This time, the issues are deeply internal. Questions such as why am I doing this in the first place always abound. It's a struggle waking up in the morning and not having the full energy to do what you're supposed to do.My fears, and doubts creep all the time!
Sometimes, I think about all the expectations that were laid for me. I am tired of doing this. I feel angry everytime I am reminded about studying and graduating and becoming a lawyer. My mom does not have a slightest inclination of what I go through in law school yet she has continously nagged me for 25 years. She does not have any clue. I feel distant over her each passing day. I am mad for putting all the expectations on me and living off other relatives get a free ride over her money and set up failed businesses. I hate it!!!!! I just hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's been awhile

It's been a couple of months since i last blogged. Oh well, my break allows me to pay attention to my favorite pastime, the NBA playoffs. The Celtics and the Lakers are one win away from a dream NBA finals matchup. But personally, i still wanna see the Pistons go there and let Kobe take it to them to avenge the Lakers' 2004 finals. I love garnett, pierce, and allen but i think they need another more year to win it all. Another thing, i read that the PBA commissioner Sonny Barrios said that he wants to do away with picking up pro players to represent the country in international competitions coz it didn't work. Oh well, sure we haven't fared as successfully as we wanted but i think there is no substitute to fielding our best players. The solution is to develop a comprehensive national sports program. Have a national pool of under 18 players to send to youth championships... Then continue developing a same pool from 18 up until they reach the PBA for SEA games, SEABA, and other minor league titles. Let's face it, these ballers' ultimate goal is to reach the PBA and earn money. The PBA then should adapt a schedule more conducive to major Asian/world competitions so that our best players can compete in them. These competitions already involve professionals from all over the world. We can't have babies compete against grown men. We may not win the gold all the time but at least philippine basketball can get more exposure and maybe one PBA player can get into Europe or NBA.

Hell hath no fury than a gay lover scorned!

My friend Anna told me about a blog named delfindjmontanp.blogpspot.com and told me that it was the scandals that are rocking "so called"manila high society. As I saw the blog, i encountered a lot of revalations about people like Celine Lopez, Tim Yap, even Tina Tinio, and of course the lover of they guy DJ Montano. Well,, the whole idea of why this blog came about is that this Brian Gorelli got involved with DJ Montano. Brian accordingly accused DJ of ripping of 70,000 USD from him. Dj accused Brian of assault with the help of Celine Lopez and was deported to Australia. Well, sayang the juicy parts were in the site that closed! I was not even able to read all. I was able to see though, tessa dragon snorting coke, wendy puyat's photo in the hongkong with her lover and lots and lots of negative things about tim,celine , and dj. Well, I hope Brian continues with his shcking revelations and satisfy the gossip-hungry populace. For more details, visit the site delfindjmontano.blogspot.com

A political question!

With another allegation against GMA coming up now under the accusation of "selling out our territorial claim against the Spratly islands, we should just wonder if GMA is still the rightful President of the Philippines. One is not a genius to see that the north rail and south rail overpricing and the ZTE broadbnd scandal involve transactions with the Chinese government officials and/or GOCC's. The "Hello Garci" and the Jose Pidal scandals of earlier years are n0t even included.

Different sectors of society have had different reactions to current national events. Some want her out, some want her to lead the search for truth, others have supported her unconditionally. With no clear path of action coming from the civil society, the political opposition, and other groups, the government continues to take advantage of a perverse political culture that has thrived on personalities rather than institution-building.

As a concerned citizen, the Pres. Arroyo should be given a day in court and clear her name. But she will not get that as a sitting President which is immune from suit. Rather, she and her henchmen are trying to give a message that she is the only one capable of governing the country. This leaves VP De Castro into a pandora's box. If you recall, then VPGMA also adopted a wait and see attitude before formally calling on Former President Erap's resignation. Well, we all knew what the result was.

This time around, the country does not need another uprising. But I think what the country needs more are leaders and citizenry willing to strengthen our democratic institutions and putting the welfare of the common good above selfish interest.

With that in mind, I believe that more and more people will be agitated as long as more and more scandals continue to rock the administration.
The Presidency of the Philippines should be an institution that is the bedrock of the people's trust. If other leaders from more mature democracies are selfless enough to give up their posts even with a tinge of scandal, (Pres. Nixon resigned over a mere wiretapping charge.) Why can't our leaders do the same and spare the nation over a bloddy political battle. If our leaders can't do it, then we as citizens using the law as guide should push for the proper political action and not just be stuck with our rotten personalistic political culture.

OUST GMA! Lakers back on top.

Oh well due to hunger issues, i just wanna say this out of my chest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't take it anymore. Gloria admitted already the allegations in the ZTE broadband deal! She didn't however clarified if she or members of the first family are involved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well, question is madam president, why didn't you stop the anomaly. Why can't you submit the people involved to the wheels of justice or is the one that should be submitted is you madam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!RESIGN KA NA PO!!! matagal mo na kami linoloko!



Oh well, the lakers are undefeated after the all star break. They are now the no.1 seed in the west and are currently on pace to win 57 games. This is the most since their last championship season of 2001-02

Topsy turvy!

It's been over a month since i last updated my blog!! Geez, what a better way to make me start blogging again is that the political universe of both the Philippines and the US, the NFL, and the NBA have endured shocking developments that will definitely have a lot of repurcussions in both the short and the long term. The Philippines just endured a leadership change in the house of representatives. Barrack Obama and Hillary Clinton are locked in a historic two way race for the democratic nomination. John Mccain is looking to get the Republican nomination. The New York giants shocked the world and proved that nobody is indeed perfect by beating the new england patriots. The LA Lakers aquired Pao Gasol and dumped Kwame Brown. The Suns now is diesel powered with Shaq in while the Matrix is out.

I just wanna give my two cents worth on the Speakership change. JDV rode the back of the tiger when his son accused the Arroyo family of corruption in the ZTE deal. At that point, mr. yoda should have gone out of his own terms instead of reminding everyone how they are indebted they are to the former speaker. anyway, kudos to Speaker Boy Nograles.

The NBA season is begginning to be more interesting as the Lakers got Pao Gasol for Kwame Brown, Jarvis Crittenton and Aaron Mckie. Well, Pacific Division rivals the Phoenix Suns did a better stunt. They brought back Shaquille O'Neal to the Western conference. The way I see it is this. Before last week, I thought that the top 10 teams in the West each are capable of winning the west. It's too bad that only 8 will qualify for the playoffs and all will depend on playoff seeding and matchups. Now will Pao Gasol wearing the purple and gold and Shaq in the Valley of the Sun, it gives the Lakers and the Suns the edge to win the West. Gasol will make the Lakers have a fearsome frontline when Bynum comes back. Shaq will bring interior defense, championship experience, and most importantly avoiding a situation where Marion leaves them without the Suns getting nothing. Of course, we will still see the results come May. But until then!